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Eyes

During my time in the seminary I quickly became acquainted with a local newspaper named Streetwise. Streetwise is a publication written by and sold by the Chicago homeless that is meant to provide jobs for those hoping to get off the street as well as to raise awareness for homelessness in the city. This poem by Ellen Palmer was published in a late 90′s edition and continues to challenge me.

Eyes

Look me in the eyes at least,
When you pass me by,
On the Street,
Whether or not
You answer my plea for money:
My eyes
Are the poorest of me–
Require only your two cents
When we meet–
And are far more in dire need of these
Than your feet.
My poor eyes!
How they have spent the rent
Trying to buy a pleasant remembrance
To throw up on my mind’s screen
When I finally tire of going
Ungreeted,
Unseen.
I tell you what I want–what
I feel
When you shuffle by behind your paper
Trying to be discreet,
Sweating slightly
Under your shirt collar and looking down,
Always down,
As if I was your sin…
Be absolved of the guilt trip!
Look at me!
Make me a mint!
Shower me with riches!
Give me a long look, and drown me
In it!
Dignity outlasts
Dollars.

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Fr. Christian is the pastor of St. Thomas the Apostle Church in Lenoir City, TN.

Comments

  • Chenoa

    “As if I was your sin…”

    Sigh… yes.

    One of my biggest reliefs when I moved away from Berkeley was not having to encounter my guilt every time I step outside my door… but… By the time I left I was familiar with most of the homeless men and women in my area and knew whose eyes I could meet “safely,” which men wouldn’t unleash their anger at me when I looked them in the eye (because really I thought I deserved it when they told me that “I’m sorry” didn’t buy them a meal, they needed a dollar). It was so hard! And I would take a certain route to school because I knew that the man on this corner would flirt with me, and I could flirt back harmlessly and that would be enough to make us both smile, but if I went by that corner I would encounter the woman who looked so sad that I would have to feel awful for not doing more. Oh, (Saint) Dorothy, help us :)

  • http://nowealthbutlife.com Rae

    Streetwise sounds brilliant.

    One of my problems is that I grew up in New England and generally do not look anyone in the eye, and certainly do not say “hello” to strangers. Now I live in the Deep South and am trying to figure out how exactly I am supposed to be friendly. It is not so much an issue of encountering the homeless as it is racial division. And so I struggle between being my(reserved)self and risking others thinking that they are invisible so long as they are not white, and trying to get over my natural tendencies to be friendly to others.

  • http://annebender.blogspot.com anne

    This is wonderful, so thought provoking. Brilliant. I work downtown and see so many homeless and hungry on my lunch break walk. Last year, I wrote this little story about a particular woman who stood out to me. http://annebender.blogspot.com/2009/08/all-i-have-to-offer.html I revised it a bit (really a lot) and it will appear on CatholicMom.com later today. After reading this, I realize that I could have done so much more with that revision.

    Thanks for this post.

  • http://pithlessthoughts.blogspot.com/2004/08/election.html s-p

    Beautiful poem. A reporter here in Phoenix stood on a corner for 8 hours and did a story on panhandlers. He said the most depressing thing was not the heat or physical strain, but at the end of the day it was all the people who wouldn’t even look at him, it was existentially and spiritually devastating.

  • Fr. Christian Mathis

    Thanks to everyone for the comments. Encounters with the homeless are never easy, but it helps to remember the dignity each person has, regardless of what we might think of their actions.

  • http://www.blestatheist.com elizabeth mahlou

    This is a wonderful poem. Thank you for posting it. I know people generally don’t have the time, but a short conversation — or inviting a homeless person to lunch — can be an eye-opening experience (no, they have nothing contagious; one will not “catch” poverty from them — and, by the way, aren’t we told that poverty is not a dreaded disease but rather that the poor are loved by God?). I have had some very touching conversations with people asking for help: the motorcyclist bound from Ohio to San Diego to move in with his son’s family after having lost everything that he owned and who had miscalculated, running out of food just one day short of there (I took him into the grocery story and told him to choose what he wanted; he was so frugal in selecting that I added a box of local strawberries that he never would have asked for but I had seen him eying); a lady in Moscow right after the dissolution of the Soviet Union who had moved onto the streets with her young daughter because her alcoholic and abusive husband refused to feed them (fortunately, it was my last day in Moscow and I had a lot of leftover rubles from unused per diem; they probably carried her through an entire month); the young man I met while waiting to be picked up at the metro station when I accidentally arrived an hour early (we had a long lunch at the Roy Rogers’ across the street, found out we shared a lot of common interests, and I learned a lot about how one can survive on the streets even in a cold climate; except for his choice of home — in this case it was a choice — he was like any other neighbor I might have met). Like Rae, I am from New England and was taught never to talk to strangers, but living in California has undone that teaching, thank God, and I talk to strangers all over the world, assuming that God will protect me when necessary. I find it easier to approach the homeless when I consider that they, too, are made in the image of God and have a piece of God within them. So, passing them by, looking down (and yes, that does tend to be a cultural trait of New Englanders), to me, anyway, would be like walking past God and looking the other way.

    Sorry for the length of the comment. The post was obviously inspiring.

  • Fr. Christian Mathis

    Glad that you liked the post. It sounds like you have grown quite a bit in your ability to trust. I am still working on that myself.

  • http://www.blestatheist.com elizabeth mahlou

    Thanks, Fr. Christian. I hope you don’t mind, but I linked your post to one I wrote for my Hungry and Homeless blogsite: http://hungryandhomelesshelper.blogspot.com/2010/03/how-to-panhandle.html. That poem touches one deeply, doesn’t it?

  • Fr. Christian Mathis

    I don’t mind at all, and yes the poem is touching and challenging.